Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Dance Recital 2015

Our 2nd year of dance! You can see last years photos HERE
We started a little late this year. But Kennedy grew so much in the short months left in the dance year.
I remember her first day back, someone said "it isn't like she is going to learn the dance by recital"

I of course didn't tell Kennedy such a thing, but boy did she blow that out of the water. 

Her love & passion for dance has completely soared this year! She memorized her dance in about 2 months, & was doing it without music! I couldn't believe it. She would see other girls being able to do certain things & would keep practicing til she could do them. She is so much more flexible than she ever was by stretching every day. She will ask to stretch at night! I am just SO proud of her.

When you put your children in these things you just never know how THEY are going to like. & she has showed me just how much she loves it!

Next year start a whole new chapter for her in dance. She joins the competition team & adding Jazz into her classes! She said she wanted to "shake her booty" this year, so I think she is going to be able to do that ;) & Kensley starts up ballet this fall as well! 

This years dance was so perfect & was to "A Spoon Full of Sugar". Mary Poppin is the girls' favorite movie! 

Anyway here is the pics that you want to see :)




Fourth of July

What a weekend!!
We had so much & it was so nice to have Daddy home for a "real" weekend! Those glimpses of how normal families have it always nice every once in awhile ;)

We spent pretty much the whole weekend at the campground! We dont have a "new" camper yet, but while we were looking my mom liked one we were looking at; so we are using their old on in the mean time! It is so so much smaller than our old one, but it does the job!

On Saturday my cousin & his family came to visit & that was wonderful! We always love when we get to see them!

Every fourth of July isnt completely without tons of sparklers, of course!!

Friday:

Kennedy was killing me with her expressions here!

Saturday:
This is my cousins little girl, my girls just adore her!

& we ended ths weekend with a trip to the zoo!!
I hope everyone else had a great weekend!



Thursday, June 25, 2015

Body Image

I have to get this off my chest.

 It pains my soul to see people not thinking they can be proud, happy, beautiful because of their body. Can you imagine not feeling those things because of what you look like? Then to be feed that you can't feel that way by companies that are literally making money off your insecurities. They hide behind their "inspiration" thru their marketing. They actually teach these people to give you, especially us mommas,stories that we can relate to, so without saying it make us think that we can't be proud, & beautiful unless we are fit & thin. 

I bought into it too, until one morning. I got up & Kennedy said "Wow Momma, You look beautiful." It was right after I had glanced at my phone at said "inspiration" & said "Oh no, I look fat." I clench my fat & said "look EW" She put her head down. Took her tummy pinched it & said "oh yeah me not beautiful e-der I fat too" My heart sank. She knew nothing of fat. Until I told her. 

 What if we changed? If we didn't keep seeing these "stories" of how we are to feel awful because of this skin hanging, or how they felt so awful because of extra weight, we wouldn't know we were supposed to too.  How much more happier we could be, being thin.

 Would I like to have smaller arms? Slimmer legs? Sure. But you know what? I live a BEAUTIFUL life. This body GREW & BIRTHED two children. It held even more life though the time was short. I am SO proud of the person I am. I work hard every day to be the person I want to be. The person I want people to remember. & what I don't want, is that people remember me for being fit & thin or bigger & chunky. 

I've spent my time feeling bad over a missed workout. Feeling bad after indulging in a ice cream sundae with my children. Of feeling bad that I wasn't in a bikini at the pool.  & guess what. I wasn't happy. Finally toning up my stomach & arms & losing those pounds didn't make me a better person, wife or mom. Sure it made the superficial me easier to look better in clothes. But is that really what make you happy? Is some SKIN, keeping you from feeling bad about yourself? Heavens I hope not.

I love myself more at the bigger weight than I ever did at my smallest. I AM the mom that is running around the pool in the tankini not worrying about a string coming undone, or something "falling out" I AM the mom that is eating ice cream with her kids after having a big meal that my family had laughs over & conversation. I AM the mom that is comfortable in my skin actually showing my children what I have been telling them their whole lives: That the outside is not what matters, it is who you are that does.

 I pray to God that my girls, when they are wives & mothers don't have feel this pressure.  I want to be able to tell them when that time comes, that like they tell me everyday; they are beautiful & wonderful, & them believe it. That those weeks, months or years after having their babies, they are as beautiful as they were before their soft middle. That who you are in the inside has nothing to do with this outwardly shell. Some shells are thin, some are soft. But what's on the inside is what counts. & no wrap, drink, pill or shake is going to give that you, ever. 

PLEASE love yourself. Don't let your body make you feel anything negative, or positive for that matter about yourself. Love YOU for YOU, big or small.

& I promise this "inspiration" if that is what it did for you, came from my heart. I am making no money or going up a level for sharing my true, unprompted, unscripted story with you :)

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

hey YOU


Hey you!
I thought maybe you needed to hear this today.
Your sink is full of dishes, you look at it & think how is it possible it is already full? Wasn't it just empty.
You were just caught up on laundry & now? Baskets full. & the clean ones you had put away are thrown across your childs floor, because well I don't know why but they emptied every.single.drawer.
You cant even get started about thinking cleaning the house..again. You can actually feel it getting dirty.

You are trying to figure out dinner tonight, before your husband gets home. & you just don't want to. Where will you find the energy?

You feel like you have ran marathon by just trying to get out the door to make it to dance/soccer on time.

You are thinking to your self you just want to get to bedtime, if you can just make it to bed time.

Just make it to bedtime, you keep saying.

& now maybe you're in bed yourself. maybe you're sitting on your couch drinking wine. or maybe your hiding in the bathroom because even though you put your children to bed they are still up.
Youre wondering if you cut out for this. There is always too many dishes, another accident, and its seem like every other momma has it figured out. they seem so..together.

You are waiting for a encouraging text or call from your spouse or friend to tell you "everything is going to be okay" but your phone doesn't ring.

You want to quit. You think it doesn't matter & no one notices that sink full of dishes or that you were up to 1 AM folding those clothes & putting them back into your sleeping toddlers drawers. You feel over looked, & after sitting in your car crying, head on the steering wheel from breaking up the millionth fight in the backseat, you realized you forgot the damn redbox AGAIN . Its been 2 weeks & could have just bought the damn movie by now. You  want to throw in the towel put up that white flag. you want to scream you have had enough. 


You're thinking that you couldn't possibly do this motherhood thing anymore and that you really dont matter or make a difference and that you are never ever going to catch up on laundry.

But you happen to open your phone/tablet/laptop to this message for me to you that YOU..right now..in your chair,bed or bathroom; matter more than you understand.
You, your life, your sore voice from screaming for the millionth time to go to bed, you're ever giving, loving beautiful heart matters.

There is going to be days & weeks & sometimes longer that are just plain hard.

But you can do this, I know you can.

You can be a mom today. 
You can look at your child & tell them you love them, even if you can still remember the way they just screamed at you & threw a mega fit.  You love them unconditionally. You make them their macaroni & cheese, get out their favorite juice even if you remember & can still feel the sticky-ness on the floor from yesterday when one dumped their whole bowl on the table & the other squirted the juice all over the floor. YOU love THEM, like no one else ever will.

You think you have messed up. But look at all that you do. All the good. The sitting up with you child after a bad dream. The making the perfect lunch with all their favorites. the wiping faces, & bottoms. the reading . the folding clothes. watching them sleep. surprising them with their favorite movie after dinner. finding their favorite shirt to wear. hanging up the picture made just for YOU. the time you let them stay in the bath as long as wanted. remember when you let them finger paint? They will.

You may want to quit. But take that white flag back down. YOU are the perfect momma to those children. you CAN do this.

I believe in you. & I think you are BEST momma.
& God made you for your children. HE choose YOU for them. No one else. YOU.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

as we approach 3..

This morning as I sat down to my cup of coffee, I read my devotion & took a peek at Facebook, I came across this article by The New York Times & it had me reflect on so much of my little kenselys life & as we approach 3, I felt like I should talk about it a little.

Besides the rounds of IVF I pretty much could have written the article I linked above. Things she said like -- "But I’m still mentally preparing myself for the worst, running through the scenario at the doctor: the silence of the ultrasound technician when something is wrong, the stillness of the fetus, the trauma of everything suddenly being over. The knowledge that I’ll have to go through it all again." . That's how I spent the majority of really each pregnancy but more so with Kensley. She was our last our shot at what we hoped would make our family "whole". I felt like I could never really "connect" with her while I was pregnant. I was riddled with fear, as I was with each pregnancy. But, I knew in my head to never get too attached. It can be over as soon as it started. Every appt I waited for the turn of the screen, the "I am going to the send the dr in now.."  but it never came. You would think that would make you the happiest in the world, but it didn't. It just meant my anxiety carried over to the next appointment and onto the next.

Then I thought, delivery, YES that will be it. I am gonna hold her & bond & feel the way I was supposed to feel.  & then when her little self tried to come far to early, far too many time I was even more scared of the things that could come from that. Luckily we got her hanging on just 6 weeks early. It was a dramatic entrance, but still when they whisked her away to check her, there was so much fear my happiness was dwindled away. Then, I held her. I can't even type well over the apples of my check smiling so big I can barely see over them. When I first looked at her she was frowning. The biggest pouty lip I had ever saw. & that is so..Kensley.


this picture conveys all the fear in my face right then


I loved her, I loved her so much. She was so small & fragile. When we got home, whether it be the hormones or just natural new mom anxiety, it happened again. I kept thinking, this isn't real, something is going to happen. It can't be going this well. I am going to be that girl, on that blog, that something happens to her baby. I didn't feel deserving, I remember saying "maybe all of this happened to us because I wasn't supposed to be a mom after all" can you imagine? I am crying right now thinking of that place I was in. A person that being a mother literally runs thru every inch of her body, thinking that. Some where along the way thru rolled twice little pants, shirts that were dresses,  & all that hair she stole my heart. It wasn't like with Kennedy it was so different, it wasn't as easy for us. I would be nursing her & look at her after the every day colicky cries that start at 5:45 on the dot every night til 9 o clock, I would realize like I do every day that God gave me her to save me, and I was deserving of her & her sister.


She is tough this girl. She is very much the person she was before she was even in my belly. Tough, bull headed & does things on her own terms. She cries & whines probably 80% of the day. & is a dang spitting image of me. She has made me a better person & momma. I am more patience, more kind, & less scared about the person I know I am meant to be. She is who reminds me daily that God wanted me to be mom, he wouldn't have given me such a wonderful, beautiful little girl to just any one, she is too special. 






I think I will always have a little bit of what the author of that article called PTSD thru our journey of being parents, even now with Kennedy being 4. The hurt never goes away, but embracing what he has given me & be grief stricken about what he hasn't can not control my life anymore. & every day she shows me that. I hate a classic #blessed but seriously I feel like this should end with a big freaking hash tag freaking blessed! 

Happy almost Birthday my sweet Kensley! 
These have been the best 3 years of our lives!

& if you are out there struggling to get here, or riddled with anxiety like I in those months of pregnancy can I talk to you for a second? God wanted you to be a momma. I know its so hard to see that right now, but I believe he hand picks the ones its hard for. He knows he is picking the right one that will trudge thru it & feel every bit of blessed that he wants you to feel when you get that baby. He choose YOU to be a momma to THAT baby. How neat is that? I am praying for you. Hang in there.

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Non- Candy Easter Basket Stuffers for Girls!

We try to stay away from candy with really, well anything. They will get some in their Easter egg hunt and that is more than plenty for them.
We try to put stuff that we are already going to get them & a few outdoor things for spring in their baskets!
Its so funny that everyday things they need like sippy cups & bath bubbles get them so excited!
Here is a list I put together of our favorites for a great Easter basket!

1. Crayola Washable Markers 2. Any book, We love the one pictured 3. Bubbles, this non spill bucket it a dream 4. CamelBak Sipper 5. A small toy, our girls our obsessed Calico Critters 6. LUSH bath bombs, tons of easter ones to choose from the carrots they offered are a fave here 7. Non-Toxic Piggie paint 8. California Baby Bubble Bath 9. Side Walk Chalk

Friday, March 20, 2015

Wet Brush Giveaway!!

As many of you know, Kennedy has had quite the head of hair since her year of cue ball bald head days. Brushing her hair is pretty much a nightmare. Even with great conditioner and detangler spray a brush session always ended in tears.
&  Unlike the one lady that was floating on Facebook I DO believe in brushing my childrens hair even if they don't want to. I also changed their diaper when they didn't want me to, so you can probably chalk me up to meanest mom ever.
There has been many a argument right after a bath & even before they even got out of the bath that they didn't want their hair brushed. Or fighting over who would go first! It was pretty awful. So I had to find another option, other than be the crazy facebook mom that doesn't brush their childs hair.


Then heaven opened up & the angels started singing & God handed me a Wet Brush. Just Kidding.
The Wet Brush completely changed our hair routine. Now our brushing days do not contain tears at all! & they look forward to getting their hair all nice &  "punzle" like! They even can brush their hair themselves now. 

When I first got The Wet Brush, I thoroughly examined it. THIS is going to get thru her tangles better than any other brush? It didn't look different. The bristles looked just like normal brush. There wasn't anything fancy about it that I could find. I was a skeptic. 
Then I got it out after bath for Kensley. & ya'll it blew my mind. This sucker got thru her tangles with ease. I honestly didn't even think it was brushing her hair it went thru so easily. Until I looked & was amazed!!  Her hair is so thin I thought Okay, but can it get thru Kennedys crazy thick hair & curls?!? & Yup it did!



Sometimes I have to do the under side of her hair when using "the squirt" because the bristles aren't quite long enough, but other than that this thing has changed our lives!
There is all sorts of colors & sizes! We have "squirts" which are travel sized & are the perfect size for the girls hands & for my purse! Then full size for my hair & when I do their hair myself! They even had a baby brush that is soft & made for sensitive skin! I am getting the "shine" brush next!!

If you have a curly locks child, or even if you don't & just struggle with tangles. & even for yourself without children. The whole family has one for themselves now, even the dolls! This is the brush for you!!


I am spreading the The Wet Brush love & giving away a full sized The Wet brush for you to win!!
Enter below!! 

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Home Organization! Laundry room!


The thing about my laundry room is..I hate laundry. Like LOATHE it.
Keeping your laundry room organized helps with function & decorating it cute makes it inviting.
Both of which I feel a laundry room should have!!
If you are ready to organize your laundry room here is a check list to get you on the right foot!
I also have a FB organizational group you are more than welcome to join with a bunch of great women encouraging one another! You can join HERE!


Sunday, February 22, 2015

American Girl Doll Dollars! !

I don't know about you all. But we are knee deep in the American Girl obsession over here! Kensley loves the bitty babies & twins. Kennedy is now into the "big girl dolls" & Kennedy lives,breathes,sleeps her doll . She has very much wanted another & I wanted her to "earn" the doll rather than us just give one to her
Which brought me to "doll dollars"! I was messing around & came up with these! Since my girls are young a visual is always helpful but these work great for big girls too! I made these for her earn & keep track of how much she had to get her doll.


I didn't make these to be the actual dollar amount of the doll, just a dollar to earn up to however many you may choose for them. 3 dollars for cleaning her room. 2 dollars when she was caught doing something nice without being asked ect. It all is how you want to create your award system! As she earns them they go into the jar! 

After putting it out there that I could offer these to other AG moms in a group the response was overwhelming. So, I decided to put them on here & create other options for yall to download. I hope you enjoy, I took alot of time making these, &I am so glad you all love them & will use them in your home

Before you download just a few notes.
-When you share please share this post & not the link.
-These are for personal use only.
-When printing this is how they came out best for me. After you SAVE, view them in PICTURE GALLERY, then click PRINT.  Then click the 3.5x5, uncheck the FIT PICTURE TO FRAME & click "4" in "copies of each picture. *you of course can choose to make them bigger*


I tried to think of all the dolls that most are wanting, but there is also a dollar with a group of girls for maybe if your going to the store & your child hasn't picked which one she wanted. There is also just a AG star one if they are saving for a accessory or outfit! :) If I missed someone comment below & I will try to make one & give link for it!

Click the links for each doll.




Monday, February 9, 2015

Snow Day Fun | Top 5 Snow Toys

I don't know about ya'll but we got ALOT of snow.
A lot is melting, so before it goes here are some great ways to have some fun with snow before it goes!

& you guys, number 3 is a real thing! I mean. Amazing.

1. Snowball & Snow Fort Maker | LL Bean // 2. Sno- Marker | POOF Slinky // 3. SnoBall Blaster | WHAM-O // 4. Children's Shovel | Wader Toys // 5. Family Snowman Kit | LL Bean

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